RaYa '09 iN SeReMBaN...!!!

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Hi guys...!!!

I just got back from my brother's girlfriends' hometown in Seremban, Negeri Sembilan...It was kinda different this year as this is the first time I celebrated raya away from my family...

I was practically blogging in the living room of my bro's house when I heard he was on the phone saying:
 

"Sekarang ke? Ok la, nanti abg bagitau Iz...

I was puzzled at that moment but I didn't really had anything in mind when I heard that...I knew something will come up out of the conversation my bro had in the phone just then...
My Bro:"Ok Iz, kiter nak pegi rumah Kak Sue ni...Parents dia jemput kiter beraye."
Me:"Sampai biler?"
My bro:"Tengoklah cam ne...maybe sampai raye ke-3 kot."
So, I just tidy up a bit as my things were still unpacked in my bag...My bro told me that we will depart from his house at 4.00pm...So, he slept because didn't sleep the past night...I was really busy watching my favorite soap opera, As The World Turns till I didn't realize that it was already 4.30pm...Then suddenly my bro came down from upstairs and asked me:"Kan tadi suruh kejut pukol 4..." I said I didn't really notice time flied so fast I just discovered about it myself...

The next thing I know, we hopped onto his bike and quickly go to Kolej Meranti and parked his bike there...I managed to get few things from my room and we went to the Section 2 bus stop and was planning to wait for RapidKL T529 bus to arrive...Looking at the time, it was almost 5.30pm and the rain started to pour like cats and dogs so we decided to take a cab for a change...Next, we head to Padang Jawa train station...

We waited for the train to arrive and we sat at the seats provided there...I started to get bored by just watching the rain so I pulled out my green mp4 player and and put the earpieces into my ears...I suddenly felt a bit excited as the song played once I turned on my mp4 player was Halo by Beyonce...!!! I listened to the music until I didn't realize that the train was already in front of me...My bro had to pull my right earpiece and told me that I was actually preoccupied with my music...


We reached KL Sentral at around 6.30pm...My bro suggested that we broke our fast at McDonald's as we could enjoy the discount for McValue Buka Puasa...So, I picked a spot and he went for our food...As he came back with our food, he told me that has been a change of plan...We can't stay for long and we have to immediately take the next train as Kak Sue and her family were already waiting for us at Seremban station...


So, we waited for the train to arrive and the next train to be there was the limited-stop train...So, we just went into the train and found empty seats for the two of us...We haven't broken our fast back then and we waited for awhile...As I listened to the azan through my mp4 player, we immediately grabbed our McValue meals and finished the hell out of it rapidly...



Me and my bro



Inside the limited-stop train


There was nothing happen in the train to talk about actually, except for the fact that there were several Indon guys in the train were making some noise when we reached Nilai as they actually wanted to go to Batang Benar but since they were on the limited-stop train, the train didn't actually stop where they wanted...Poor them...


Basically, we arrived at around 8pm...We went down on the other side of the platform so we have to climb up the stairs and go to the other side of it...The floor was kind of slippery as it was raining before, plus the sandal that I was wearing didn't have a nice grip, I fell down a few steps down...!!! God, it wasn't that painful or humiliating because I fell in front of everyone but I didn't need it at that very moment...So, I continued walking and I realized there has been some pain at my left arm so I took a glimpse...To my surprise, I cut my left arm...Fortunately, it was not a big cut...So I quickly head to the toilet and clean my wound...




 


Basically, this is the first time I meet my future sister-in-law...She was rather petite and cute...We were introduced to one another and we head to the car that was waiting for us...There, I met my bro's future father-in-law which I don't know his name till now...

It rather took some time to reach  Jelebu from Seremban...The reception there was not that good even for Maxis and Celcom...I called my parents that night and wish them raya...They were at my dad's village, Keningau...Everyone was there except for me and my bro...It doesn't matter to me anyway...So, I manage to talk to everyone that I "needed" to talk to, even I didn't want to...


The next morning, I was awaken by the rooster...I quickly grabbed my towel and went to the toilet...I washed up and put on my green baju melayu and a pair of black slack pants...I didn't wear a full set of baju melayu as I don't buy any new baju melayu this year...All the men in the house went for solat sunat aidilfitri...To tell you the truth, it been awhile since I prayed for solat sunat aidilfitri...I would always missed it for the pass few years because I would be busy preparing for the first day of syawal on the previous night...But not this year as I didn't go back to home town so there was nothing to prepare...


After that, we got back and saw nasi impit and rendang were already on the table...We enjoy eating them before we head to their relatives house...My bro made a fool out of himself as he purposely accidentally stepped on cat's shit and brought it into the car...The poop was big and smelly...I couldn't even imagine that he didn't feel that his sole was touching the poop...Unfortunately, I forgot to take a picture of that priceless moment...Maybe he was too nervous in front of the future in-laws...

As we arrived to their relatives house, I  get to eat lontong or lodeh at their relatives house...But I can't enjoy the food quite much because I was distracted by the green curtain at that house...It was damn beautiful...




 

 

 


It was kind of different from the usual raya that I always had in Sabah...Back in Sabah, it would be much chaotic and hectic when it comes to this festive season...Here, they celebrate it in more decent way...


We were taken to the Muzium Adat the next day before we head to Jeran Toi...The museum was rather boring but it made me realize that actually there were some doings by the old folks which doesn't go along with our religion...Somehow they practiced more superstitious things back then...But the waterfall at Jeram Toi was rather a blast...It was cool and risky at the same time...We took some pictures and I sang my heart out there and Kak Sue's family told me that I have a wonderful voice and told me to never give up singing and try my luck again this year...




 

 




 


So, that was all about it...We had a pretty different kind of raya this year...New experiences gain for me...It was nice to get to know my bro's future in-laws...Let's just hope that they really going to end up on the altar...


Now, I'm back in Shah Alam...Next week, I'm gonna have to face my first semester final exam...I still haven't read anything yet...My head is so empty now...I assume all other students haven't study that much yet either as it is festive season where people will have too much fun and being preoccupied...


I just can't wait to go back to Kolej Meranti this Friday...I miss my friends so much...Another thing is, our ALAM guy which is Idzni gonna come to Meranti on Saturday night to meet us the Meranti guys and spend the night there...I am really looking forward for this weekend to come...

In the mean time, chiao...!!!

JuST aNoTHeR DaY...!!!

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Hi guys...

It's just one more day from raya and here I am staying at my brother's house...Tonight is the last night for Muslim's to perform their tarawikh prayer and tomorrow will be the final day of fasting...Whether we realize it or not, it's been one month already..Some people might be pretty excited, or should I say, REALLY excited to celebrate raya, but unfortunately for me, it's gonna be just another day...

Heartless, you say? Yes, I don't blame you if you have such thought about me now...I don't blame myself either for growing up into such kind of person...Yes, I know such days are special but I just don't feel the vibe...

Let me tell you, it's pretty hard to be Iz Rijap. It's not that I'm trying to get sympathy or make people to feel sorry for me, yet to make me feel sorry for myself...I'm telling you this because I think it's time for people to get to know me a little bit better...

You might see that Iz is a bubbly guy who always laugh out loudly and can't stop talking...You can say that I'm such a happy-go-lucky person...But deep down inside me, I'm strong empty...I just don't know why but this is the reality of my life...

I grew up in a problematic family...I grew up hating my dad...I never liked him, until few years back when I realized that he has changed a lot since my parents got divorced for the 2nd time...After they got together again after their 2nd divorce, I can see that my dad is trying to be a better man...I think that's why he let me have my driving license before I finished SPM and allowed me to bring my car to school...

The reason I hated my dad so much is because he was a hot-tempered person...I was the only child who got beaten up by my dad starting when I was 4 years old...I've been beaten up by him until I lost count already...At first I thought he would treat my other siblings the same as he treated me, but nothing...The worst thing that my siblings ever got from my dad was just a big shout from him...

I grew up into a hater, who always have vengeance towards everything...That's why I feel empty inside...I never feel loved by my family..Heck, I somehow don't know what is love actually...Sometimes, I think the affection that I had towards people was love...But if love is so great, why does it hurts so much???

I grew up in a family that doesn't really know how to show what is love...From what I experienced in this family, when they shout at you and curse you for your mistakes, that is what they call hatred love...Except for my mom, she's not that kind of person...I think I'm so fortunate to have that kind of mother...

I prefer to spend time with my friends compared to spending time with my family...I think it's because most of my friends know how to express themselves and I feel that they care about my well-being when I am around them...My family doesn't approve my principle which is to care more about friends than family, but if you ask me, who would you rather care for??? I think you can think of the answer by yourself, based on what kind of family you are living in...

I don't feel the vibe of raya this year because since I was small, I don't feel the spirit of raya...Eventhough I'll always get new baju melayu every year, duit raya from my parents and other relatives, eating rendang and lemang plus ketupat on the first day of syawal, I just don't feel it because I never do what other people do...

My family didn't teach me how every year of raya we have to seek forgiveness from our parents...To tell you the truth, I never did that to my parents because I didn't know that was necessary...Not that I'm blaming them, but when I realized that we should do that in this teen age it's kinda odd to start something new out of your tradition, you know? I shook their hands every year, but what for??? For the forgiveness duit raya...

I don't have the bond that people have with their family...Another thing that I feel so strong empty about...That's why I'm so not close with my older brother...As far as I remembered, last time we met was 4 months ago and our meeting was less than 30 seconds...

You know when I see Acap looking for cartoon movie in my laptop, I can see that he cares about his little brother a lot...I asked him:"How does it feels to be such a caring brother?" He said:"It feels great." I just smile at him and let him continue searching the movie for his beloved little brother...How I wish I can be just like him...

When I went to Azhann's home in Rawang, I envy the bond that he shares with his brothers...When they need to separate from each other, they would shake hands, the younger ones would kiss the older ones' hands, and they would give each other slaps kisses on the cheek...When I saw that I feel touched with their bond, but I wonder at the same time..."Why didn't I have that with my siblings?"

Basically, my siblings and I would throw things shouts at each other everyday...We don't get along pretty well...That's why I don't even see my brother so often when I'm here...But another thing is maybe because the house that he is renting right now is so dirty...I mean, drop dead dirty...!!! He said it's normal for dirty bachelor guys to have house like this...He even said that there are houses more dirty then his...


Room 1


Room 2




My brother's room


The narrow staircase


The living room



The kitchen


The bikes in the living room

Okay, maybe I overreacted exaggerated a little bit. It's not that dirty, but messy. The only thing that I like in here is the green bike that is put in the living room...The bike is actually belong to my bro's room mate who happens to go back to his home town...




I'm loving it...(^o^)

I just don't know how am I gonna survive in this dirty messy house...Seems like I really have to look on the floor and watch where I step...LOL

It's gonna raya soon and I'm gonna stuck here in this dirty messy house...I hope I can find a clean spot where can lie down and have my beauty sleep...Let's just hope that I can go out and get some fresh air out from this house...

We're gonna celebrate raya, but it's gonna be just another day...

Chiao...!!!

aLoNe iN THe DaRK...!!!

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Hi guys...!!!

It' the 26th day of fasting in the month of Ramadhan and we're gonna celebrate raya in 4 more days...!!! Yeah, believe it or not we're so close to our raya and our FINAL EXAM...!!!

Yeah, I don't believe it myself in the first place...It seems just like yesterday I was here for the first time and registered as a UiTM student...Time flies so fast as we don't realize that the world around us is turning...

I just realize that my life is not the same anymore...Few days back, I went to Sepang to see my pet brother...It's the first time I met him after the incident where I was chased out by my cousin from her house...

I told him about everything...I told him about my new life in UiTM as a TESL student...Where I get the chance meet new people with different kinds of attitude...Where I met someone I really love...Where I learn new thing especially about leadership and responsibility...Where I got myself new experiences...

Yup, I was kept on talking like there's no tomorrow when suddenly he stopped me and said:"Seems like you really love your life now, especially when there's someone that can make you love to be there even more...!!!" I told him that this is the tim
e of my life that I have been waiting for...Whether it's tough or not, I'm gonna go through with it anyway and endure things even more...

Speaking of which, I'm gonna celebrate raya here in Shah Alam together with my biological brother who happens to stay at Section 7 where I just met him once in just less than 30 seconds ever since I'm here...How cool is that, huh? (O_o)

You know what? I don't really like it when people around me have the thought of me being a bad child to my parents...Let me get things straight...First of all, I don't hate my parents...I know the fact that without them I won't be existed in this unfair wonderfu
l world...

It might be odd to all of you that I don't call my parents twice a day, I don't kiss them every time I meet them, I talk a little bit too hard with them on the phone, I just call them when I need their money...

Well, let me tell you this...Try to be Muhammad Izdihar bin Rijap for just 1 day, or heck, try to stay with all of my family members (aunts, uncles & cousins included) in one week...I dare to cut my index finger if you wouldn't feel the way I feel now...

Don't you guys ever think that I also want to be just like you, to have that kind and loving family? It is always easy for people to say because you don't feel it...That's why I don't like to judge people based on that they do because I can never understand unless I experience the very same thing...

I always envy people around me who have a really caring family...My family is just not like your family...Not all family knows how to show their love, how to express their feeling...

I mean, I know that my family loves me...But I just don't feel it unless from the financial support that I get...Being in a dysfunctional family is not easy...Though the circumstances in my family is much better now compared to the old days...But still, there's a bl
ack mark in my heart due to lots of family crisis...It's just one after another...I just can't wait what is this family bigger crisis next year...!!!

Actually, I am literally alone in Kolej Meranti in room D305...Yen, Lee & Bombay accompanied me last night but that was the latest that they can be here...They have their own family to go to as well...


I'm gonna wait until Saturday so that I can go to my biological brother's house in Section 7...I'm not really looking forward to it anyway, I just want to watch TV as he has Astro in his house...

BTW, I went to watch Final Destination 4 in 3D yesterday and we had dinner at A&W last night...Right after that, I bought a Texas Ted 1901's hotdog and he bought himself a RM6.oo of Chicken Kebab...The movie was fantastic...I even thought that those flying objects were gonna hit me...

Tahajjud Cinta by Datuk Siti Nurhaliza

I just bought myself Siti's new album, Tahajjud Cinta...I found it in Speedy Videos in Plaza Shah Alam...Right after that, Yen and I bought a large BBQ Chicken pizza at Domino's...Since we have a free coupon, we get another free regular Beef Pepperoni pizza...We had a blast just now...!!!

Basically, I'm gonna listen to this album all night long...That's the only thing I can do right now...Let's just hope I can wake up early as I need to help Yen to submit his Computer Literacy CD as he submitted an empty CD case to Miss Sally just now...I might go to Pusat Kesihatan as well tomorrow as I just can't stop from sneezing right now...I think I'm gonna catch a cold...

Well, that's all folks...I'm gonna keep you guys posted with my life...

Chiao...!!!

i'Ve BeeN TaGGeD...!!!

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Firstly: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own blog and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.
Secondly: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

Who sleeps in bed next to you?
My best buddy, Azhann...
Well, not literally in bed with me but his bed is next to mine...

Have you ever lied to a teacher to get out of a deadline?
been there, done that...but teachers are clever that us so they know...

What kind of books do you read?
I really love Hajime Kindaichi Penyiasat Remaja, but I started to be interested in Azhann's books...

Best day of the week?
The day where I found someone who loves me and accept me for who I am...
But I know that day would be way in the future...

What's really creepy?
1. Syaril - Creepy Stalker
2. Blackouts in Meranti
3. Being alone
4. Horror story
5. Being molested???

Who is your celebrity crush?
You wouldn't know...Not that popular...Hehehe

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Green & As The World Turns

What are you listening to right now?
Pussycat Dolls - Hush Hush

What did you eat for lunch today?
Since it's fasting month, I ate nothing...
But I ate Nasi Tomato and Kebab during breaking fast just now...

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Facebook, Cari, Myspace...

What was the last thing you bought?
Chipster BBQ & 7Up

What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
My Green Legacies...!!!

Does the weather affect your mood?
Not really..!!!

What is your zodiac sign?
Taurus

Do you want to learn another language?
Yup, language is Power

5 things you can't live without.
Cell Phone(s), Internet, Wallet, Music & Visual Aid

If you could meet anyone now, who would you meet?
Dato' Siti Nurhaliza & Adam Lambert

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
I love you, ******.

What are you looking forward to?
The day where I have to present my CSS Final Project...!!!

Say something to the person who tagged you:
Miss you, Kay...!!!

8 persons i tag :

aSSiGNMeNTS...!!!

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Hi guys...!!!

I know, it's been awhile since the last time I posted an entry in my blog...You guys must have been waiting for so long now...

Sorry for not updating my blog...It's just that my life now is kind of hectic and chaotic a little bit...Not literally saying so, but I'm so busy at the moment...And so lazy too...(^_^)

I have lots and lots of assignment that I haven't finish yet...Since I only have just one more week to get my assignments complete then we'll be going for study leave...Yup, and then right after that it's gonna proceed to Raya Holiday...

Let's join me and we can recall what are the assignments that I need to submit before the 2 weeks holiday...

  • College Study Skill - Final Project (My part is the presentation)
  • College Study Skill - Portfolio
  • Malaysian Studies - 2000 words essay
  • College Writing - Monsters vs Alien Presentation
  • Computer Literacy - 3rd Assignment (Teaching material development)
That is all as far as I can remember...Maybe if there is more assignments to complete I'll just ask my friends later...Hehehehe

I have been fasting in Shah Alam for almost 2 weeks already...I really enjoy life here...I mean, things that I do here are all new experience for me...There's a bazaar at Seksyen 2...Things that they have there are so tempting...

Speaking of Raya, I know everybody must be really excited and just can't wait to celebrate with their familiy...But it's a big no-no for me...FYI, I'm not going anywhere during the upcoming Raya as I will just stay in Shah Alam with my elder brother in Seksyen 7...

Ok...Better get going...Lots of assignment need to be completed...Feeling hungry...hehehehe

Chiao...!!!