SToP...!!!

written by Iz |2 comment(s)

I just don't understand why sometimes people can be so blind and be blinded by their own EGO...!!! When someone says that a person is emotional, he/she just couldn't see that he/she is doing the same thing.

Saying others narrow-minded, what difference does it make you? Please stop this or I will make ALL of you stop this. Everybody is bound with their own opinion, it's what we call as Freedom of Speech and you call yourself open-minded by refusing to listen to others?

I know that everyone of you don't like what is happening in this country right now, but that's the truth and yes once again I say, truth hurts.

I know that it was not intended, but things are just going awry gradually and unbearably out of control. If you don't like the fact that this is happening in our country, then just leave. One more thing, sometimes people refuse to see what is in front of them. Like everybody has tried to explain why this and that happened in the first place, but still you're not satisfied with the answer given to you and you can't just stop to argue...!!! It's like you have a mirror in front of you, but you can't even see that what you are wearing sucks...!!!

I've had enough, this has got to stop. Enough is enough. I want everybody to stop arguing about whatever you are arguing about...!!!

Stop writing blog entries and Facebook status updates about you dissatisfaction towards others...!!! I just can't stand it...!!!

TeLL Me WHY...!!!

written by Iz |1 comment(s)

Today's class was intensely interesting. A question that lead to an argument, which I felt like I was watching a debate. But I'm not gonna talk about it here, because it's really none of my business and I just think that the argument would never end if it continues.

This time I want to talk about affection and feelings. I've been in this situation more than I can ever count. Well, I've been having crushes since I can remember, but the things that I have to go through are harder gradually. I've been in love many times as well, and having the experience made me more mature. Well, everybody tells me that I act too old for my age. I just don't know why.

To make story short, I just don't understand why some people act strange to me. Well, I've been meeting lots of people since I've been a UiTM student and my friends are getting more and more than I can remember. So, I've encountered few people who at first giving me signals as if they are interested in me. I was not interested in the first place, but seeing them like that made me have the feeling of giving it a TRY. So, I started smiling back at them, talk to them nicely and getting to know them. But do you know what happened? They have this sudden change that I don't even understand. Suddenly, it seemed like I was the one who was interested in them in the first place. Come on, I don't even have a slight feeling towards them but when I have come to the edge where I learn to accept them, they changed 360 degrees.

Sometimes, I feel like I was the only one who has the feeling but what if your friends were thinking about the same thing but it turned out not as anticipated? Now that I am beginning to be interested, you back off?

That's why, once in a while I think being single is better than having someone as your partner. But being a peculiar human being (as mentioned by Miss Sally), I just can't deny the fact that I somehow need someone by my side.

But, I just don't understand these people. Now, you tell me why...???

FRuSTRaTioNS...!!!

written by Iz |2 comment(s)

Few days ago have been pretty frustrating for me. Not because of workloads whatsoever, but it's more to peer pressure.

I'm not saying that my friends are bad, but peer pressure will always be around no matter how good your friends are. Few weeks ago, things have been pretty hectic. The re-staging of Whoa! Willow!!, assignments and many things I needed to complete.

When things are just unbearable, you really need a medium to let it out. In this case, I'm using my blog as a way to release the tension that I've been keeping since forever.

Note that I will be very honest in my post this time, so for those of you who are reading right now, thousand apologies from me as I'm just another peculiar human being.

I know I'm the class rep, but please have some effort for yourself guys...!!! Please save lecturer's number when they gave their number to the whole class. Just because I have every lecturers' number, it doesn't mean it's okay for you to have it anytime you want, from me. Obviously, you didn't even care when the lecturer was talking in front of the class.

I know I'm the class rep, but please have some effort to have your own class schedule...!!! We've been given the class schedule since the very first day of our first meeting with Mr Shah on 16th November 2009. I've been telling you that I will ALWAYS inform you if there are any changes with our schedule, postponed classes, replacement classes whatsoever. But that doesn't seem to effect you in any way of your life, then you'll always come to me and ask me again and over again, "Iz, where is the class?" I mean, why do you want to ask the question that you already know the answer? Ask me once, I consider it as you wanted confirmation from me, ask me twice, it's depressing.

I know I'm the class rep, and I don't mind spending my prepaid credit for all of you so that you could get the latest updates from me. But it seems like I have just wasted my prepaid credit for nothing, because you'll come again to me and ask me stupid questions. Ask me again about things I've sent to your cell phones...!!!

I know I'm the class rep, but it doesn't mean that I'm your alarm clock...!!! Waking up every morning for attending 8.30am classes is everybody's responsibility. Not because I'm your class rep, I need to wake you up every morning. I know I always the earliest to get up, but it doesn't mean that I will always wake you up. You don't even have the effort to set your alarm and get up yourself. I mean, it's okay if you are really tired and don't hear the alarm then I can help to wake you. But if you yourself don't have the effort to wake up, then what makes me have the effort for you to wake you up?

I know I'm the class rep, but it's not my fault if you get something unexpected the next time you come to class because you didn't attend the previous class because you were busy playing game all night. And then all you know was to save your ass when the lecturer asks you what you have been up to and why didn't you attend the previous classes 3 times in a row.

I know I'm the class rep, but it's not my fault if we have to extend the hours for extra or replacement classes. All you have in mind is to go back home every weekends. Now you tell me, what is the actual reason we come to UiTM Shah Alam and participate in ASASI TESL program? Is it to go back every weekends and complain everytime we have to stay for the weekend? Hell, if you want to talk about going back home, I only go back home once in a semester and I never complain because my house is in Sabah. If I want, I can always go back to Sabah whenever I want. You said you miss your family, don't you think I do too? I can always cancel my plan if more important thing come up, why can't you do the same?

I know I got Band 4 for MUET (which is something that I'm not happy with), but do you think I like seeing you got Band 3? I too would really love to have you for B. Ed TESL and you're acting like it was our fault that you didn't get through. Hell, even I got Band 4 it doesn't mean I have confirmed my position in B. Ed TESL. I mean, we were devastated with the whole MUET's band thingy but enough is enough. Don't blame the stage if you can't dance, don't blame the microphone if you can't sing.

I love being a class rep, I love to have this kind of responsibility, but things can just be really hard if you don't give me your full co-operations. Adam told me the reason people are being like this is because they are spoiled by me, because I'm such a good class rep. Being a university student, you can't just rely on people to get your things done. This is university, you have to do everything by your own. Imagine if you have a class rep that always tells you the wrong info, a class rep that always not around to handle your classes and a class rep that always don't know what to do next, a class rep that is impossible to be contacted by the lecturers and a class rep that always fails to get a venue for your classes to be held? I'm not saying that I'm good, but I need your co-operation to have effort for yourself. Doesn't mean I'm your class rep, I must do everything for you.

I hope that after reading this, you would get some self-consciousness and realize that. I don't expect you to respect me, because you don't even respect the lecturers. I just want you to know, you don't have to understand what I'm going through.

Once again, my apology to all of you. I'm just telling you the truth and yes, truth hurts.

iT'S BeeN "BaNNeD"...!!!

written by Iz |1 comment(s)

Owh My God...!!! I've just realized that it's been a really long time ago the last time I write anything in this blog. Sorry guys, for those who have been meeting me and saying that I really need to get myself settle and back to basic.

For all you know, I was busy with Whoa! Willow!! theater production. I was one of the crews, or should I say the Special Force Crew. Being in the production, it was a really good experience for me. Frankly speaking, at first I was feeling like to quit from the production, as the hard work that I needed to do. But I didn't proceed with my intention, as I couldn't just leave my friends who have been involved with the production. Heck, I was the reason why they joined the production in the first place!!!

When Izza first approached me and asked me to find people to be the crew, they were interested in joining and quickly sign up for it. But sadly only 1/3 of the people who signed up really attended all those days where we all made the stage and hand props.

I still remember the time where the guys and I went to Puncak Perdana Campus where we went to TEKA and took the steels needed to make the staircase. After that, I was the only guy left as everybody back out on us. Luckily James came back with us right after the mid sem break. Izzaty and I glued the fake money and cut the polystyrene the second time I came. Sorry for being absent for the whole of next week guys, I needed some break.

The next time I came, it was the night before the press conference in INTEC Hall. There, we got the chance to meet the casts for the first time...!!! It was awkward at first, but once we introduced ourselves to each other it was fine later. We exchanged smiles and glances. When I watch they rehearse for the first time, I envied them for being the cast. I was thinking that I should be one of them, performing instead of being one of the crews. Some of the casts approached me and asked me why didn't I go for the audition as they said I can sing well (don't have to tell me that, I know! ). As far as I'm concern, the audition was held when I was not here yet, when I was not yet a UiTM student. I think it's okay, considering that I need to get as much experience I can get first before I can be one of the casts. I've been telling everybody that the next time they have theater thingy going on, don't forget to notify me.

During the whole 5 shows, I can feel the bonding between the crews and casts started to get closer. No more awkwardness when we see each other. Everybody was talking to each other like we've been friends since forever!!! I want to thanks everybody who was involved with this production, for giving me such good experience and memories...!!! I love you all...!!!

I also get to meet TESL ASASIans from Melaka campus. They were great and friendly. I like friendly people because they reminded me of myself, being talkative and unstoppably friendly. Guys, I really hope we would meet each other by the time we get into the Degree program, Bachelor in Education (TESL).

Speaking of which, I was in the state of devastation because of my MUET result. Yes, I'm grateful of my result though I only got Band 4 and I passed the requirement but it was painfully disappointing when you believe in yourself that you can do much much better but in the end things didn't turn out as planned.

Well, my moment of grief has come to an end. Now I will focus more with my final exam, finishing the ASASI program with flying colors so that there will be no more regrets in the future. I know, the future is pretty much bright in front of me. Just wait...!!!