FRuSTRaTioNS...!!!

written by Iz |2 comment(s)

Few days ago have been pretty frustrating for me. Not because of workloads whatsoever, but it's more to peer pressure.

I'm not saying that my friends are bad, but peer pressure will always be around no matter how good your friends are. Few weeks ago, things have been pretty hectic. The re-staging of Whoa! Willow!!, assignments and many things I needed to complete.

When things are just unbearable, you really need a medium to let it out. In this case, I'm using my blog as a way to release the tension that I've been keeping since forever.

Note that I will be very honest in my post this time, so for those of you who are reading right now, thousand apologies from me as I'm just another peculiar human being.

I know I'm the class rep, but please have some effort for yourself guys...!!! Please save lecturer's number when they gave their number to the whole class. Just because I have every lecturers' number, it doesn't mean it's okay for you to have it anytime you want, from me. Obviously, you didn't even care when the lecturer was talking in front of the class.

I know I'm the class rep, but please have some effort to have your own class schedule...!!! We've been given the class schedule since the very first day of our first meeting with Mr Shah on 16th November 2009. I've been telling you that I will ALWAYS inform you if there are any changes with our schedule, postponed classes, replacement classes whatsoever. But that doesn't seem to effect you in any way of your life, then you'll always come to me and ask me again and over again, "Iz, where is the class?" I mean, why do you want to ask the question that you already know the answer? Ask me once, I consider it as you wanted confirmation from me, ask me twice, it's depressing.

I know I'm the class rep, and I don't mind spending my prepaid credit for all of you so that you could get the latest updates from me. But it seems like I have just wasted my prepaid credit for nothing, because you'll come again to me and ask me stupid questions. Ask me again about things I've sent to your cell phones...!!!

I know I'm the class rep, but it doesn't mean that I'm your alarm clock...!!! Waking up every morning for attending 8.30am classes is everybody's responsibility. Not because I'm your class rep, I need to wake you up every morning. I know I always the earliest to get up, but it doesn't mean that I will always wake you up. You don't even have the effort to set your alarm and get up yourself. I mean, it's okay if you are really tired and don't hear the alarm then I can help to wake you. But if you yourself don't have the effort to wake up, then what makes me have the effort for you to wake you up?

I know I'm the class rep, but it's not my fault if you get something unexpected the next time you come to class because you didn't attend the previous class because you were busy playing game all night. And then all you know was to save your ass when the lecturer asks you what you have been up to and why didn't you attend the previous classes 3 times in a row.

I know I'm the class rep, but it's not my fault if we have to extend the hours for extra or replacement classes. All you have in mind is to go back home every weekends. Now you tell me, what is the actual reason we come to UiTM Shah Alam and participate in ASASI TESL program? Is it to go back every weekends and complain everytime we have to stay for the weekend? Hell, if you want to talk about going back home, I only go back home once in a semester and I never complain because my house is in Sabah. If I want, I can always go back to Sabah whenever I want. You said you miss your family, don't you think I do too? I can always cancel my plan if more important thing come up, why can't you do the same?

I know I got Band 4 for MUET (which is something that I'm not happy with), but do you think I like seeing you got Band 3? I too would really love to have you for B. Ed TESL and you're acting like it was our fault that you didn't get through. Hell, even I got Band 4 it doesn't mean I have confirmed my position in B. Ed TESL. I mean, we were devastated with the whole MUET's band thingy but enough is enough. Don't blame the stage if you can't dance, don't blame the microphone if you can't sing.

I love being a class rep, I love to have this kind of responsibility, but things can just be really hard if you don't give me your full co-operations. Adam told me the reason people are being like this is because they are spoiled by me, because I'm such a good class rep. Being a university student, you can't just rely on people to get your things done. This is university, you have to do everything by your own. Imagine if you have a class rep that always tells you the wrong info, a class rep that always not around to handle your classes and a class rep that always don't know what to do next, a class rep that is impossible to be contacted by the lecturers and a class rep that always fails to get a venue for your classes to be held? I'm not saying that I'm good, but I need your co-operation to have effort for yourself. Doesn't mean I'm your class rep, I must do everything for you.

I hope that after reading this, you would get some self-consciousness and realize that. I don't expect you to respect me, because you don't even respect the lecturers. I just want you to know, you don't have to understand what I'm going through.

Once again, my apology to all of you. I'm just telling you the truth and yes, truth hurts.

iT'S BeeN "BaNNeD"...!!!

written by Iz |1 comment(s)

Owh My God...!!! I've just realized that it's been a really long time ago the last time I write anything in this blog. Sorry guys, for those who have been meeting me and saying that I really need to get myself settle and back to basic.

For all you know, I was busy with Whoa! Willow!! theater production. I was one of the crews, or should I say the Special Force Crew. Being in the production, it was a really good experience for me. Frankly speaking, at first I was feeling like to quit from the production, as the hard work that I needed to do. But I didn't proceed with my intention, as I couldn't just leave my friends who have been involved with the production. Heck, I was the reason why they joined the production in the first place!!!

When Izza first approached me and asked me to find people to be the crew, they were interested in joining and quickly sign up for it. But sadly only 1/3 of the people who signed up really attended all those days where we all made the stage and hand props.

I still remember the time where the guys and I went to Puncak Perdana Campus where we went to TEKA and took the steels needed to make the staircase. After that, I was the only guy left as everybody back out on us. Luckily James came back with us right after the mid sem break. Izzaty and I glued the fake money and cut the polystyrene the second time I came. Sorry for being absent for the whole of next week guys, I needed some break.

The next time I came, it was the night before the press conference in INTEC Hall. There, we got the chance to meet the casts for the first time...!!! It was awkward at first, but once we introduced ourselves to each other it was fine later. We exchanged smiles and glances. When I watch they rehearse for the first time, I envied them for being the cast. I was thinking that I should be one of them, performing instead of being one of the crews. Some of the casts approached me and asked me why didn't I go for the audition as they said I can sing well (don't have to tell me that, I know! ). As far as I'm concern, the audition was held when I was not here yet, when I was not yet a UiTM student. I think it's okay, considering that I need to get as much experience I can get first before I can be one of the casts. I've been telling everybody that the next time they have theater thingy going on, don't forget to notify me.

During the whole 5 shows, I can feel the bonding between the crews and casts started to get closer. No more awkwardness when we see each other. Everybody was talking to each other like we've been friends since forever!!! I want to thanks everybody who was involved with this production, for giving me such good experience and memories...!!! I love you all...!!!

I also get to meet TESL ASASIans from Melaka campus. They were great and friendly. I like friendly people because they reminded me of myself, being talkative and unstoppably friendly. Guys, I really hope we would meet each other by the time we get into the Degree program, Bachelor in Education (TESL).

Speaking of which, I was in the state of devastation because of my MUET result. Yes, I'm grateful of my result though I only got Band 4 and I passed the requirement but it was painfully disappointing when you believe in yourself that you can do much much better but in the end things didn't turn out as planned.

Well, my moment of grief has come to an end. Now I will focus more with my final exam, finishing the ASASI program with flying colors so that there will be no more regrets in the future. I know, the future is pretty much bright in front of me. Just wait...!!!

FeeLiNG NoT So GooD...!!!

written by Iz |1 comment(s)

I've just woken up at 11.30 pm just now. I don't know why but I feel unwell.

It's not that I'm having a fever, or catching a cold or cough a lot, but I just feel fatigue. Maybe it's because when I went to the Dramatari Rawana in Philhamonik Hall in KLCC last night I didn't get any sleep because I just couldn't.

Since I'm still fresh, I think I'm gonna use the time to work on my College Writing 1A Assignment and my speech outline for my demostrative speech for Listening & Speaking. But luckily, my class starts at 10.30am tomorrow...!!! So, I can relax a bit and feel free to sleep till 9.30am tomorrow.

Oh yeah, I just wanted to say Happy 22nd's Birthday to my biological brother, Muhammad Fahmie Ehsan Rijap who had just turned one year older. I don't have anything to give u at the moment as the allowance is not in yet.

I think I need to start my work now so that I can sleep earlier.

THe NeW LooK oF MY BLoG...!!!

written by Iz |4 comment(s)

Hi guys...!!!

It's been a really long time ago since I've written any entry for my beloved blog. I was really busy with life, especially all being TESL ASASIans students and lots of assignments needed to be finished. I'm still having unfinished assignments needed to be completed by the end of this week.
I still have College Writing Assignment 1A which is about finding 6 articles and summarize any 3 of the articles based on the title that we have chosen by ourselves. I'm writing about the title "Abuse Towards Youth". Next, I need to do a demonstrative speech right after the end of the mid sem break. I'm doing about how to fast fold your shirt. We're not supposed to to anything yet but we have to submit our speech outline within this week. I have just finished my College Reading assignment which is to write an alternate ending of the movie "Cast Away" that we watched last Wednesday. I've written a pretty interesting alternate ending for everybody to know.

Apparently, we'll be having a test on Basic Principles in Education, or I would say BPiE. Basically, I don't really know what is it gonna be asked in the paper later because there's not much we've learned in this course. I think I should open my notes and do some reading.

Well, as far as everybody's concern, I've changed my blog's layout. I love this layout because it's less striking than the one that I had before. I really hope that all of you will enjoy this blog much better after this. Plus, I've added some cute and funny pictures as my emoticons.

Okay, I think I better go now as more and more assignments are waiting for me to be completed. I won't be sleeping as my class will be in few hours time.

Until then, chiao...!!!

THe STaRT oF SoMeTHiNG NeW...!!!

written by Iz |0 comment(s)

Hi guys...!!!

OMG...!!! I've just realized that it's been a month now since the last time I updated my blog. Well, my life had been dull during the whole semester break. Nothing interesting happened to me. Basically I'd just eat, sleep, and Facebooking 24/7. Get how boring my break was...???

Everybody (or at least the ASASI students) knows that we have just started our 2nd semester of ASASI TESL. It's been three weeks now, since the first day of 2nd semester. I still remember on the first day where Mr Shah told us that our batch of ASASI TESL had been disappointing at some point as the Dean was not happy with our results. He also said that Lendu Campus, Melaka have better results than us, which is quite humiliating for us, the so called the best batch for being placed in Shah Alam Campus.

As far as everybody is concern, my pointer is 3.18. Yeah, I know people would say that for a linguistic course that I'm taking right now, that pointer is pretty low but learning English is not as easy. It's more than meets the eye. Comparing ourselves with other ASASIans; Science, Engineering & Law, we're kinda so far behind them. I was hoping that I would get 3.5 and above, but I'm still so grateful that I'm still in the safe zone.

For this semester, it's gonna be really fun and a great joyride. The classes had been reshuffled and half of the class of 2B, the class I'm in right now, are from my former class, 1C. Things are not gonna be the same, that's one thing for sure. 1C will always gonna be itself, but I see 2B as brand new start for me. Once again, I've been chosen as the class rep which Mr Shah had remark it as a "kontrak sampai mati!".

I'm honored as people still believe in me doing simply what I do best. For my whole life, I've never been not being a leader. I'd tried taking a hiatus during the last Minggu Mesra Siswa and let someone else be the "penghulu" for a change. I just can't sit still, every breath that I took was not easy as I see someone else was doing and taking my role. I believe that no matter how hard things are but if that's what we do best and we do it sincerely, we would always be happy about it. That's how I feel about being a leader.

I know that in the beginning, when I was first appointed as the TESL ASASIans President, the guys especially don't have faith in me. Thought that someone else would suit my position now. It's fine by me as we were still in the process of knowing each other. If I were to be them, I think I would do the same. Who would want a flamboyant, bubbly, overly talkative and crazy guy to lead them? Well, one thing that I'm grateful about myself is that I'm committed to the responsibilities that are placed on my shoulders. So, I hope everybody has different perspective  about how I do my work now.

As for the recent Aidiladha, I didn't go back home. I stayed in Meranti with few guys and luckily Kutiq was kind enough to invite us to his house. It was fun as I went to my friend's house because my last Aidilfitri was rather boring because I only went to my bro's gf's house. 

The Meranti "Left-overs"

 

 

The next day, Milin texted me and told me that she was bringing foods to Meranti for us. How thoughtful of her to still think about us. We enjoyed the food so much till there was nothing left. We were so full, and we saved our money. Hehehehe...Thank you so much, Milin...!!!

I was supposed to do my reading journal 1 assignment but instead I come here and write a blog entry. I guess I just needed a time off from everything for awhile and express everything here.

I really hope that this start of something new would give me a whole lot new experiences.

Chiao...!!!